my left hip was acting strangely today.  I skipped activity today.  It was hurting.  It hurts less tonight.  Hopefully it's just too much bike ;)

1/4 mile walk warm up. 1 mile run. 1/4 mile wlk cool down

no hip pain yesterday and none on the run today.  Here's hoping that there is no hip pain tomorrow.  If there is, I'll get into Brady. 

1/4 mile walk warm up. 1.5 mile run. 1/4 mile cool down.  10 min yoga

For the 2 month anniversary of being hit by the car, I ran outside.  It was 55 degrees and a bit rainy and chilly.  My white legs were glowing.  I ran at about 3:30pm.  the run felt very good.  No hip pain :)  a few niggles here and there.  Hoping that they work themselves out ;) 

60 min yoga. 35 min stationary bike

1/4 mile walk warm up. 1.5 mile run (11:45 ave). 1/4 mile walk cool down. all treadmill. 10 min yoga.  

no physical problems.  My fingers are crossed :)   I had a few flashes of getting hit while running.  The flashes are getting better, less frequent.  It still brings me to tears, but that is getting better too.  It was scary as all get out to run through that intersection on monday, but in both directions, drivers stopped and waved me through.  I suppose I just need to keep at it and it will get better.  I haven't cried for a long time when I am driving, so that must be a good sign :)

WARNING...Don't read this if you are looking for some sunshine.  VERY BAD MOOD! :(  My back was buggin' last Thursday so I took it easy.  I headed out to run Friday morning and it HURT!  I circled around, came home and headed over to Dr. Brady.  The weekend was BAD :(  Monday at work was terrible.  A member came up to me after the meeting and asked if I was OK.  I thought I was faking pretty good, but she said I was walking a bit off.  She's an athlete and recognized the weird walk.  I have been SO upset :(:::.......  Yesterday Brady took a large portion of my appointment assuring me that I will get better.  He is 100% certain that I will have a full recovery, but it can take 3-6 months to recover from getting slammed by a car.  I am trying to chill.  I haven't cried today.  I might just swim and do yoga for the next three months.  I am pretty beat and downtrodden.  Ok, I may have to cry today.  I'm getting a bit ticked off.  Now to go fix dinner for the troops.  Put on the smile and suck it up!  Oh crap!  I have a choir rehearsal in an hour....

6 am yoga practice. 60 minutes.  It felt GREAT! :)  So far the back fells good.  Hopefully it will embrace the yoga and I can heal.  Lots to do today :)

A positive perspective

60 minutes of yoga.  Body is feeling better, depression is getting worse :( 

15 stationary bike, 15 walk on treadmill, 30 yoga

Christmas was nice.  this slow recovery crap is really getting to me.  I'm doing little bits here and there.  A little yoga, a little treadmill walking.  I even biked a little yesterday (I'm not supposed to bike).  I'm in need of a basic steady plan, but I have to tweak it depending on how the back feels :p  I like things to be the same everyday.  I don't do well with all of this "flexibility" ... "listen to your body" CRAP!  I need routine.  I need to be able to vacuum with out ending up flat on the floor for an hour while the spasms subside.  AND to top it all off, is scares the CRAP out of me to even think about running outside.  sorry for the whine.  This is my whine spot.  I have to put on a chipper face everywhere else.  My Polly Anna has been hijacked and it looks like the hijackers are slowly suffocating her.  I suppose the worst part is that I feel like I can't DO anything.  I just have to wait and let my back heal.  AND, without running, how can I know if the knee that was hit by the cars bumper is injured?

Things I can control.......

what I eat.  No more eating like a lumber jack.  I may not be as active as I'd like, but I can STOP eating enough to support a small nation.

I can do yoga everyday.  It may be VERY modified, but I can do some. 

18 min stationary bike, 18 min treadmill walk, 45 min yoga 

18 min stationary bike, 18 min walk on treadmill, 40 min yoga.

OK- so my back is achy, but not form altering ;)  I do have to lay flat on the floor for a while after each exercise.  My back is just WEIRD!  I see Brady tomorrow.  He says that we are starting official rehab tomorrow.  I am going to do these three things everyday this week.  If all goes well, I'll add some running in next week.  I shall consult with the doc first.  He says I am clear to run right now, but I have to listen to my body.  My body keeps acting like it wants to throw a fit, so I have skipped it.  I've had so many setbacks that I am a HUGE CHICKEN!  I am not used to being such a pansy.  I need my fiercness to come back.

18 stationary bike. 18 walk. yoga